Today she woke to find the strength inside her song/ that put a smile upon her face/ but you know it never lasts for long.


I'm still cringing about reading my livejournal and two xangas. Seriously I can't even explain to you how embaressed I am. I am so so so sorry to anyone who had to deal with me between the years of 2002 and 2005... fortunately for me (and the general public) sometime around 2005 I realized that I didn't live in the ghetto, and thus stopped talking like I was doing 20 to life... (sorry for any raging generalizations I just made there, I'm a sociologist and should know better but alas thats the only way i can explain the gravity of the situation). Anyways, my second Xanga got gramatically better so its like a tenth less embaressing then the others. I'm not sure why I stopped blogging except that I got Myspace, so everyone moved from Xanga to there and it didn't seem as useful anymore. Now I realize that was a mistake though, I should of kept blogging.

Today I was going to do my Anthropology midterm but WISE (the system) is down, and thus I cant get my student # (which is my own fault, really, because I should have it memorized but I just always sign it with my social security #... bad cher). So because I dont have my student number, I can't sign into myphcc, so i cant take the midterm until march 5th. Unless the school will email me back, which i hope they do.

Anyways, that's a bit frustrating. Maybe I'll start on my anthropology paper. I'm doing it on the role of Egyptian women in Ancient Egypt, which was surprisingly equal to that of men. I found this interesting so thats my topic! It's pretty funny that there are ancient civilizations that figured out what we still cant seem to figure out in modern day society. alas, thats life unfortutanely. I'm kind of toying with the idea of concentrating on gender in sociology... but then I am alot more interested in Marxian theory and making the world a better place and I'm not sure gender would fit into that. Although the whole idea of gender roles really does fascinate me. Maybe this week i will make it my mission to read "The Feminine Mystique"... I've had it for probably a year and managed to make it through the first chapter and thats about it. It's not because it's boring, it's because i am absolutely terrible about finishing books. I don't read as much as I should, but I do at least try to keep up on things by reading news on the internet (which is more than i can really say for most of the population who get their news from god knows where)

Next week is a spring break, although it doesn't feel much like spring or a break. It's fifty degrees here in southern florida. That probably sounds like a tropical getaway for those of you in the north who have gotten like 50 feet of snow this winter (I feel your pain) but when it's a median temp of like 80 degrees, and is then 50, you feel like an ice cube. Your body just can't handle it. Seriously, I am now a wimp when it comes to the cold. Brrrr my fingers are freezing right now just writing this, haha.

These are one of the only good things in my old xanga, the quotes (sorry to keep beating a dead horse!)

“I guess, you know, I looked a little bit like um, who was that? The guy in Wang Chung.” -Ben (Folds), referring to his days in High School

"Trio- You mean that doesn't mean five?" -Ben Folds

“Has anybody here ever been hit by a car before?” - Ben, introducing Fair

“I tend to just eat the Tootsie Pop whole, wrapper and all because I'm impatient.” - Ben Folds

“I learned how to say, "Tokyo fucking rocks!" in Japanese... I'd love to go into a record store and say, "I AM BEN FOLDS!" and have all these Japanese girls swarm around me while someone takes a video of it to show my friends back home.” - little story about the Japanese tour

“Shit... fuck... does anybody know the second verse? Security, let that man through!” - Ben, at Summerfest, when he forgot the words to Video Killed The Radio Star

“I can't believe Napster might be shut down. Music is for everybody. When people get excited about it, whether from hearing it on the radio or borrowing a record from a friend, or accessing it through Napster, they buy records and come out to shows.” - Ben Folds

“Once every two and a half years.” - Ben, when asked how often he does his laundry

“I've been called a nerd in every possible paper across the United States.” - Ben Folds


I obviously loved Ben Folds at the time. ALOT. I'm really grateful for him actually, his music led me to so many things and such a different path then I was previously on. I don't listen to his albums as much as I should (in fact, as long as we are admitting things here, I still have not listened to his new album all the way through) but I still consider him one of my favorites. I just love everything about him.

This is turning into a novel of an entry so I'll just leave it at that. Sheesh.

<3 Cher

ok... just a few more...

“Yeah, I was thinking, what else could I do to be like Prince, because everything else, from my lifestyle to my dancing, is just like him, so I thought I'd record like him as well.” - Ben on playing all the instruments on the album (like Prince)

“Alot of people assume that my name is Ben because I'm the guy who sings, and thats the name of the band, but it's kinda like Hootie and The Blowfish. My name's actually Quami.” - Ben Folds

“I was a geek I think in high school... yeah, I was.” - Ben Folds

“Thanks alot y'all, we're the Spice Girls and we'll be back in March.” - Ben Folds

get a haircut and get a real job.

i realized i really need to keep writing a personal blog. or start actually because i havent been. I cannot tell you the joy I am getting at the moment from reading my old blogs... I was trying to recover my old deadjournal for the past 2 hours (couldnt remember the link). In the proccess I recovered two old xangas, and had to recover my aol s/n to find my deadjournal. But I succeeded! Seriously, I am cracking up right now. I was a horrible writer. Why did I write like I ruled the mean streets of compton? Seriously if anyone read this stuff now I'd never get a boyfriend, never get a job... hell, i would of never gotten accepted to community college!

It is funny though, some of the weekend accounts are hilarious. I made my life seem so big and important, and I guess in some tiny way it was. It was before all the family drama, before steph leaving, before the shoe dept (oh god, i wish i would of kept a journal during those days...). I miss it. its funny it, i dont remember the little things anymore. I used to be so good at remembering the silly things that happened that really made my 3rd wednesday is january special, or any other little day.

Among finding embaressing journals, I also found the myspaces of my two biggest crushes in high school. One's married, one's engaged. Oy. When did I grow up? Also, when did I stop being a stalker?

yeah, I don't know either.