"A Thousand Kisses Deep"
The ponies run, the girls are young,
The odds are there to beat.
You win a while, and then it’s done –
Your little winning streak.
And summoned now to deal
With your invincible defeat,
You live your life as if it’s real,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.
I’m turning tricks, I’m getting fixed,
I’m back on Boogie Street.
You lose your grip, and then you slip
Into the Masterpiece.
And maybe I had miles to drive,
And promises to keep:
You ditch it all to stay alive,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.
And sometimes when the night is slow,
The wretched and the meek,
We gather up our hearts and go,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.
Confined to sex, we pressed against
The limits of the sea:
I saw there were no oceans left
For scavengers like me.
I made it to the forward deck.
I blessed our remnant fleet –
And then consented to be wrecked,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.
I’m turning tricks, I’m getting fixed,
I’m back on Boogie Street.
I guess they won’t exchange the gifts
That you were meant to keep.
And quiet is the thought of you,
The file on you complete,
Except what we forgot to do,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.
And sometimes when the night is slow,
The wretched and the meek,
We gather up our hearts and go,
A Thousand Kisses Deep.
The ponies run, the girls are young,
The odds are there to beat . . .
Monday, December 21, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
i am fucking done.
well, that is it! i'm done with my family. they are all a bunch of caniving liers... so much for going back home next fall, that is not happening unless I can get my own place which I cant afford, nor can I look and approve a place from 1,000 miles away. nor am i going to get into usf, nor can i afford ut soooo I'm FUCKED basically! I am seriously thinking of quitting school and doing something else... man, if it wasnt for my dog I so would. You have no idea how tempted I am to 'move' home and dissapear. Seriously, I would tell absolutely no one where I am going. that would be awesome. I know where I would go though. I'd get a passport and buhbyeee.
Anyways, I am absolutely not talking to my mom. I totally took apart my phone and everything else so i can't get tempted. Everytime I want to talk to my mom I'm just going to come here and say what I want to say. It's going to be hard, but I cannot let this family manipulate my life anymore. I would do so many things differently in my life, first not get a dog, second i'd never move here. I don't even really care about anything at the moment and dont really care about anyone anymore.
anyways, thats more of the depressing thoughts for now. merry fucking christmas.
Anyways, I am absolutely not talking to my mom. I totally took apart my phone and everything else so i can't get tempted. Everytime I want to talk to my mom I'm just going to come here and say what I want to say. It's going to be hard, but I cannot let this family manipulate my life anymore. I would do so many things differently in my life, first not get a dog, second i'd never move here. I don't even really care about anything at the moment and dont really care about anyone anymore.
anyways, thats more of the depressing thoughts for now. merry fucking christmas.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I realized I love reading musician biographies because I can totally place myself in the story, like a fly on the wall. I'm not talking Gene Simmons or anything, the Bob Dylans, Elliott Smiths, and Jeff Buckleys of the world is what I mean. Huge personalities, quiet personalities, and little lives. That's what I really love.
I had to write a Jeff Buckley paper for music appreciation so I flipped through Dream Brother again. Kingdom for a kiss is also a really good fansite with tons of quotes and interviews, really great stuff. Like this one, which I love:
"I learned long ago not to attach [death] to either myths or truths or mystic truths or special books written by people a long time ago, I have no preconceptions whatsoever about the void and about the end, except that I feel there is none, really no end." -jeff buckley
I did survive my wisdom teeth, hoorah! It wasnt so bad, it really didnt hurt at all. My stitches just fell out. erm, i mean i may have pulled them out. dont tell my dentist, shhhh. it was an interesting ordeal.
I had to write a Jeff Buckley paper for music appreciation so I flipped through Dream Brother again. Kingdom for a kiss is also a really good fansite with tons of quotes and interviews, really great stuff. Like this one, which I love:
"I learned long ago not to attach [death] to either myths or truths or mystic truths or special books written by people a long time ago, I have no preconceptions whatsoever about the void and about the end, except that I feel there is none, really no end." -jeff buckley
I did survive my wisdom teeth, hoorah! It wasnt so bad, it really didnt hurt at all. My stitches just fell out. erm, i mean i may have pulled them out. dont tell my dentist, shhhh. it was an interesting ordeal.
I still have one paper to write this weekend and I am tackling the daunting task of pivot tables on excel, weeee! I have no idea what I am doing but I shall report my findings. I hope I get this paper to Kelly sometime this century, haha. Oh geeze I just realized that in two months time it will be a new decade. Where did the time go...
I am also loving the #youmightbealiberal topic on youtube. what started out making fun of liberals, is now liberals calling conservatives dumb basically. love it.
#youmightbealiberal if you think karl marx is a little bit sexy:
anyways, that is all. there are papers to write and cigarettes to get at the drugstore! (not for me!)
Thursday, November 5, 2009
wisdom teeth tomorrow.
uh, yeah... not really looking forward to that one. i hope i survive!
just because i love it and it makes me happy:
just because i love it and it makes me happy:
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
better love. &inspiration.
(Borrowed from lookbook.nu :D)
So here I sit. Some years have passed
I say I don't but I miss her bad
I smell her in my sheets you see
Like she's sleeping next to me
She'll say
Jack, I'm leaving now
So don't you wait up for me
Cause better love I'm yet to see <3
i count the freckles on her face one, two, three hundred times a day.
I didn't die, sorta. Let me update on the last few weeks.
Hanson was amazing (as if there was any doubt that it would be true). The setlist left a little to be desired because all tour they were doing amazing covers of Journey, Bon Jovi, etc and we got stuck with "Oh Darling" which they've played a million times. I'm just a little bitter about that, "Don't Stop Believing" would have kicked so much booty. Hanson would have been even more amazing if these two kids next to us could have stopped making out and touching for five seconds. I swear, I attract these people! Not even joking. It happens everywhere I go. I'm not a total prude but I just don't need to be rubbing up against these types while I am trying to enjoy Hanson, Ok?
Anyways, us:
Opening acts (who with the exception of hellogoodbye were pretty awesome!). Especially Steel Train, because they were from New Jersey, so hello they gained about 500 cool points!
Hanson:
Ok, so then after Hanson was all awesome and stuff- I got the swine flu. I had to miss my Sociology test and my statistics class (which was the last class before a test, ick) and go to the clinic and get some tamiflu (250 dollars later...) which made me even sicker. So I spent all of Tuesday in the bathroom dying, I mean I was really dying. But anyway, that's what I get for going out and having a life- swine flu. How I am punished. Friday I have my wisdom tooth removal, fun stuff. I am so not looking forward to that on about a zillion levels. Everyone tells me I'll be fine, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to die. Also, no insurance so I dont think I'll be taking any vicodin. YAY. I'm hoping I will lose a few pounds though (yeah I know, how healthy) since I wont be able to eat anything but yogurt and broth. YUMMY.
In other news, the new album from Tegan and Sara is awesome. Also, The Rocket Summer songs are good but I am hoping the album isn't as preachy as the songs on the ep. It's not that I don't like the songs, it's just what I've always loved about the rocket summer is he talks about his faith in a nonpreachy way, and in most of the songs if you didn't know thats what he was singing about you wouldnt just figure it out because they just sound like normal love songs. The new songs- not so much. I kind of feel like the rocket summer hates me for being an atheist. Which is really ok.
Tomorrow my music appreciation class is cancelled which is pretty awesome. I only have my ethics class where we are watching a movie so, yay.
Also, big BOO on election day. Boo on Maine for making the lousy choice of preventing people love and the comfort that a marriage brings. We won't stop fighting...
Although someplace in Colorado legalized marijuana, so it wasnt a total loss.
Ok, the end of this not so interesting post.
<3 Cher
Hanson was amazing (as if there was any doubt that it would be true). The setlist left a little to be desired because all tour they were doing amazing covers of Journey, Bon Jovi, etc and we got stuck with "Oh Darling" which they've played a million times. I'm just a little bitter about that, "Don't Stop Believing" would have kicked so much booty. Hanson would have been even more amazing if these two kids next to us could have stopped making out and touching for five seconds. I swear, I attract these people! Not even joking. It happens everywhere I go. I'm not a total prude but I just don't need to be rubbing up against these types while I am trying to enjoy Hanson, Ok?
Anyways, us:
Opening acts (who with the exception of hellogoodbye were pretty awesome!). Especially Steel Train, because they were from New Jersey, so hello they gained about 500 cool points!
Hanson:
Ok, so then after Hanson was all awesome and stuff- I got the swine flu. I had to miss my Sociology test and my statistics class (which was the last class before a test, ick) and go to the clinic and get some tamiflu (250 dollars later...) which made me even sicker. So I spent all of Tuesday in the bathroom dying, I mean I was really dying. But anyway, that's what I get for going out and having a life- swine flu. How I am punished. Friday I have my wisdom tooth removal, fun stuff. I am so not looking forward to that on about a zillion levels. Everyone tells me I'll be fine, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to die. Also, no insurance so I dont think I'll be taking any vicodin. YAY. I'm hoping I will lose a few pounds though (yeah I know, how healthy) since I wont be able to eat anything but yogurt and broth. YUMMY.
In other news, the new album from Tegan and Sara is awesome. Also, The Rocket Summer songs are good but I am hoping the album isn't as preachy as the songs on the ep. It's not that I don't like the songs, it's just what I've always loved about the rocket summer is he talks about his faith in a nonpreachy way, and in most of the songs if you didn't know thats what he was singing about you wouldnt just figure it out because they just sound like normal love songs. The new songs- not so much. I kind of feel like the rocket summer hates me for being an atheist. Which is really ok.
Tomorrow my music appreciation class is cancelled which is pretty awesome. I only have my ethics class where we are watching a movie so, yay.
Also, big BOO on election day. Boo on Maine for making the lousy choice of preventing people love and the comfort that a marriage brings. We won't stop fighting...
Although someplace in Colorado legalized marijuana, so it wasnt a total loss.
Ok, the end of this not so interesting post.
<3 Cher
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Things I Love Thursday
Some things that I have loved this week.
Cuddly times with the beast (this is an old picture though. shes still as cute)
The Avett Brothers lyrics: (they are genius aren't they?)
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I’ve collected
And throw it in a pile
Bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
Park the old car
That I love the best
(The) inspections due and it won’t pass the test
It’s funny how I have to put it to rest
And how one day…I will join it
I remember crying over you
And I don't mean like a couple of tears
And then I'm blue
I’m talkin’ about collapsing
And screaming at the moon
But I'm a better man
For having gone through it
Yes, I'm a better man
For having gone through…
Ever since I learned how to curse
I’ve been using those sorry old words
But, I’m talkin’ to these children
And I’m keeping it clean
I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
No, I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I used to own
And burn it in a pile
And, bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
Also this quote by Jeff Buckley (what a beautiful man!):
"I don't have any allegiance to an organized religion; I have an allegiance to the gifts that I find for myself in those religions... I'd rather be non-denominational, except for music. I prefer to learn everything through music. If you want divinity, the music in every human being and their love for music is pretty much it. It's the big indication of their spirituality and their ability to love and make love, or feel pain or joy, and really manifest it, really be real. But I don't believe in a big guy with a beard on a throne, telling us that we're bad; I certainly don't believe in original sin. I believe in the opposite of that: you have an Eden immediately from the time you are born, but as you are conditioned by your caretakers and your surroundings, you may lose that original thing. Your task is to get back to it, to claim responsibility for your own perfection."
This blog (Click the photo to go there!):
also, remembering fun times with friends:
and having no school on tuesday! I spent all day paper writing, but I loved it just the same.
<3
Cuddly times with the beast (this is an old picture though. shes still as cute)
The Avett Brothers lyrics: (they are genius aren't they?)
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I’ve collected
And throw it in a pile
Bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
Park the old car
That I love the best
(The) inspections due and it won’t pass the test
It’s funny how I have to put it to rest
And how one day…I will join it
I remember crying over you
And I don't mean like a couple of tears
And then I'm blue
I’m talkin’ about collapsing
And screaming at the moon
But I'm a better man
For having gone through it
Yes, I'm a better man
For having gone through…
Ever since I learned how to curse
I’ve been using those sorry old words
But, I’m talkin’ to these children
And I’m keeping it clean
I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
No, I don’t need those words
To say what I mean
Tear down the house
That I grew up in
I'll never be the same again
Take everything that I used to own
And burn it in a pile
And, bulldoze the woods
That I ran through
Carry the pictures of me and you
I have no memory of who I once was
And I don't remember your name
Also this quote by Jeff Buckley (what a beautiful man!):
"I don't have any allegiance to an organized religion; I have an allegiance to the gifts that I find for myself in those religions... I'd rather be non-denominational, except for music. I prefer to learn everything through music. If you want divinity, the music in every human being and their love for music is pretty much it. It's the big indication of their spirituality and their ability to love and make love, or feel pain or joy, and really manifest it, really be real. But I don't believe in a big guy with a beard on a throne, telling us that we're bad; I certainly don't believe in original sin. I believe in the opposite of that: you have an Eden immediately from the time you are born, but as you are conditioned by your caretakers and your surroundings, you may lose that original thing. Your task is to get back to it, to claim responsibility for your own perfection."
This blog (Click the photo to go there!):
also, remembering fun times with friends:
and having no school on tuesday! I spent all day paper writing, but I loved it just the same.
<3
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