i am fucking done.

well, that is it! i'm done with my family. they are all a bunch of caniving liers... so much for going back home next fall, that is not happening unless I can get my own place which I cant afford, nor can I look and approve a place from 1,000 miles away. nor am i going to get into usf, nor can i afford ut soooo I'm FUCKED basically! I am seriously thinking of quitting school and doing something else... man, if it wasnt for my dog I so would. You have no idea how tempted I am to 'move' home and dissapear. Seriously, I would tell absolutely no one where I am going. that would be awesome. I know where I would go though. I'd get a passport and buhbyeee.

Anyways, I am absolutely not talking to my mom. I totally took apart my phone and everything else so i can't get tempted. Everytime I want to talk to my mom I'm just going to come here and say what I want to say. It's going to be hard, but I cannot let this family manipulate my life anymore. I would do so many things differently in my life, first not get a dog, second i'd never move here. I don't even really care about anything at the moment and dont really care about anyone anymore.

anyways, thats more of the depressing thoughts for now. merry fucking christmas.