graduation.

I can't believe i am starting my senior year of college in a few weeks. I never thought I would get here. Things were so so hard and I had absolutely no confidence in myself; I never thought I would find my passion in anything. Now I am going to graduate with a degree on sociology and a 3.9 gpa (at least). I will not accept anything less from myself. My goal is to continue my education and get my PHD in either sustainability or sociology with a specific interest (to be determined). It's just so weird. I don't give myself enough credit sometimes. I should be very proud. Everybody doubted me and now I am going to do it: I am going to be something. something amazing.

something annoyed me so much today. I get so many stupid conservative, religious forwards from my family that I usually automatically delete without even reading. For some reason today I read them. Well it was some stupid prayer, and this part particularly infuriated me:

"We have exploited the poor and called it
the lottery.

We have rewarded laziness and called it
welfare.."


So which is it? Are we exploiting the poor under the name of capitalism (lottery) or are we rewarding them for being lazy since poor people obviously just don't like to work (yeah, and we can say this with a straight face when we have like, 10 percent unemployment). It cannot be both. We cannot be exploiting the 'poor' and rewarding them for being lazy.

This one made me laugh too because it came from the typical right wing talking point that all of our forefathers were puritans who loved jesus and hated the gays, amen! "We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment."

AND ACTUALLY THE FOREFATHERS LIVED DURING THE TRUE 'ENLIGHTENMENT'. so what is your point exactly? That cannot really be debated...

Anyway, just had to get that out before i exploded.

PROP 8 WAS JUST RULED UNCONSTITUTIONAL!

Happy day for equality, folks!

Everybody's got to eat, but everybody doesn't.

wow, a whole month without posting! Nothing interesting has happened, and I doubt anyone is even reading this, so it doesn't matter :P

Mostly what I wanted to post was this. I've had so much time to listen to music lately, I've re-fallen in love with it in a way. It's pretty beautiful. I hadn't found anything I'd related to in a really really long time.

Albums of the Moment:
The Gaslight Anthem- American Slang
Steel Train- Self-Titled
Frightened Rabbit- The Midnight Organ Fight (seriously, I've listened to this nonstop for like a month)
Kate Nash- My Best Friend Is You (while you are at it, check out 'Made Of Bricks')
Wakey Wakey- Almost Everything I Wish I'd Said The Last Time I Saw You
Grace Potter & The Nocturnals- Nothing But The Water

Honourable Mention: K'naan- Troubador. Wow, a beautiful album, I've had it for like a year and have never listened to it... nuts. Honestly, this is the kind of hip-hop I miss. I hate saying I don't like hip-hop anymore, because the truth is I love it, it's one of the first kinds of music I ever fell in love with, even before rock and roll really. The stories they tell need to be told, but truth be said I do not appreciate the rappers who degrade women and perpetuate ridiculous stereotypes of the community.


Noticed Hanson isn't on this list... pffft.

I honestly believe my love of hip-hop helped lead me to sociology which is a beautiful gift, thank you.

lets get oldfashioned back to how things used to be

albums that make me cry every time because they are so heartbreaking, either for personal reasons or the music itself:

the river- bruce springsteen
august and everything after- counting crows
made of bricks- kate nash
whatever and ever amen- ben folds

now i can add 'the midnight organ fight' by frightened rabbit to here. How have I not discovered this before? tragic.

oh god, what a fabulous sadness. what a great album to discover as i've been feeling nonfabulously sad lately.

she's got no future, just a life to endure.

hello blogosphere. Today I got a surprising amount of things done... I cleaned my room, vacuumed, cleaned the litter boxes (ick), did laundry, ran to the store, and had my first steak n shake experience! Seriously, Tampa has every single fast food imaginable, it's ridiculous. Also fattening. I was meant to start a diet today, obviously that did not happen. I am cutting out all sweet drinks and sticking to water from now on. Coffee gets a pass, but I have to start to use less sugar. That's basically it.

those were days of roses; poetry and proses.

I am so so so glad that I bought this Tom Waits album on a whim two weeks ago. I'm just getting round to listening to it now but I am seriously in love. The other songs I tried to listen to were a little hard to stand, but I suppose his later work is a little bit more avantegarde (at least from what I read searching through google).The songs are just so understated and beautiful with the piano shining through creating so much emotion you just want to cry! The lyrics are also so beautiful and poetic, you could such emotion just from reading them on a piece of paper. It really is quite extraordinary. In case anyone out there is reading my blog, the album is "Closing Time". I think it's his debut or one of his first albums anyway. I think I'm going to burn this one for my dad, along with the new Hanson CD ('shout it out' in case anyone is interested). The new Hanson album hasn't gotten a super lot of play since I've been preoccupied with 'pet sounds' and 'new miserable experience' (strange taste whattttt).

Let's see, what else have I been up to. Not much really. I put chlorine in the pool today, unloaded the dishwasher, remembered to take out the recycle (come on this is always a success since i usually forget)... really nothing special. I was going to get my nails done yesterday but couldn't justify the expense (I spend approximately 1/6 of my time biting my nails. That's right. 1/6.) Of course, I can justify buying to many new albums from the record store. It's something I haven't done in a long long time though, and I suppose some things never change. ever. Before I cared what I looked like, I spent all my money on CDs and literally never bought new clothes for myself. I didn't even buy good Cds though so it was kind of a waste (this was during my crappy hip-hop stage... the 15 dollars on that edited version of tupac's greatest hits was well spent though).

Not much else to say. I think I am going to make salmon for dinner... I was going to make mashed potatoes but I am too lazy, so I'm just going to reheat the corn that's already in the fridge. I'll make the Parmesan potatoes tomorrow instead.

I need a haircut. that is all.